wow. i hardly *ever* write from my office anymore. but i am sort of in the mood today. i will only be here, in this office, for 2 more days. no! i'm not (finally) leaving. (i wish). the brand spanking new School of Pharmacy is near completion and we are scheduled to move in on August 3. it is weird. i have been here for nearly 10 years (gasp), even though i have been in 5 different offices during that time - but always on the same floor, same suite.

the most suckish aspect of the change is that it will be twice as far from my house, no longer really in walking distance. it is in "west campus" - which is like the suburbia of campus. all new, so corporate-looking. i don't like it. i like being on REAL campus. i did see a pretty pond, and i think there is a secret old cemetery, if they didn't tear it down. i'm not quite sure how i will get there. and the bus routes are in the process of changing, so there is no way to make a firm plan, but i think i can bus most of the way. and faculty/staff ride free. that part is good. when the weather is ok, i can just walk home, 2 miles or so. but in the morning, ugh. i would have to get up and out too early! it will be so strange to have my 10-year routine so disrupted. but it will be interesting to be in the fancy new building.

i have been sick over the weekend and still. yesterday i stayed home from the office. even though i felt rather shitty, the poet and i still had some fun. we saw Inception! wow! and we went to the city market for fresh veggies and made gazpacho. we didn't go on any hikes though. too hot. also TinaMerlot was sick, too - she needed a new battery. which she now has.

i am really having issues with art/picturemaking lately. i have been reading/visualizing/thinking a lot, but not *doing*. at least with product as the end result. i almost REFUSE to keep doing the same unsatisfying things i have been doing for months. i have been making some experiments, because it is important to keep my hands doing things, but either toss them, or cover them up and start over. i have not been updating my etsy or artfire stores, because that means doing the same things. i think the artfire may have been a mistake. but since i paid for 3 months, i should use it. somehow. i really have to find my path. my work. but i feel so blind and stupid. and quite bored of myself. i know things will feel better when summer is over. they always do.