it seems spring may actually come after all. eventually. finally i saw a crocus yesterday. three actually. normally i see them in mid- to late-february. and forsythias even, by now. but not this year. winter started late and is lasting forever. but i'm sure it will seem short once i am in the midst of boiling summer. the climate change is pretty unsettling. i am thinking about Japan this morning. i'm sure my mother is watching the news and thinking about California. well, me, too. i almost texted Betsy to say it might be a good day to go to the mountains or something. but it was only 5am there and she would probably not like that. she will go to work in downtown LA and not the beach anyway. and David works in San Francisco. i hope he is not going diving this weekend! i can't believe there are still people who think that the issues of climate change are just some liberal bullshit.

sometimes i feel guilty for not writing more and regularly. i miss my old rambling. but i just don't seem to have *words* lately. or pictures even. and i'm not showing my new artStuff yet (if ever). so what is there to share? hmm. maybe i will be more interesting (or my life will) once i am in a new environment. yes, it WILL. because i am going to MAKE it so. i've had enough of this solitude, quiet, disinterest. i am ready for more liveliness. now matter where i end up.

it is the longlonelyweekend at home and i am mostly glad. i have things i am working on. it is warm and dry enough for lengthy walks. maybe with pictures! i have books. i might have some red wine. i am happy enough.