(note: this is from last week, Friday? when blogger was DOWN. gasp.)

it turned hot - really hot - this week, so on monday i had to go walk early. no lounging about with the laptop in bed and two cups of coffee. i didn't like sweating, but i did like finding this "installation" in a hard shell suitcase, sitting on a neighborhood corner, next to a short stone wall. i examined it carefully, in just the way i taught the girls when they were little - Eyes Only. of course, i used my iPod, too. there were also lots of irises. i had to break down and turn on the A/C. but only for two days, because it is nice and cool again now. whew. i will get enough of that hot stuff in Texas. i don't want it yet. the rest of the week i felt achy and tired. i don't know why. stress, i guess. i also got two zits, which is ridiculous at my age. i am clearing out lots of artJunk, sorting and tossing and packing it up. i think i am almost finished gluing into books now - and have already packed them away to finish on a future someday. same with the canvases. it is odd for them to be gone now. i have been going through photographs (real ones) and ephemera. feeling nostalgic and odd about my time here, longer than i have ever spent anywhere. i am still really worried about the car hauling and started thinking again about just selling the car and getting a new junker in Texas. but i really love tinaMerlot, even though she is such a ruffian. i just don't know...my stomach is growling already. there is nothing good to eat for breakfast. i can get a powerBar when i get gas, on the way to the big city. but that is almost 3 hours from now. ugh! not even a banana in there. i am glad to go see the poet, but i am sort of bored by Kansas City now. we always do the same things. i am ready for new things. thank god the weather turned, though, because his ceiling fan broke. i will have to help him put his AC unit in a window. it's scary. the window sill is very old. i'm always afraid we will drop the unit out the window. i really wish i knew where i was going to live and what my life was going to be. i even wonder what i really want. some mystery and possibility is exciting, but maybe there is a little too much for right now. i don't know. rambling. time to go research a new restaurant for lunch. oh great. and i'm starving. well, onward.